Chapter 48 Returning to the Beginning
Chapter 48 Returning to the Beginning
I was afraid of Song Yafei like this, and even more helpless that I couldn't save Lin Qiuran.
Actually, I should have known sooner.
How could Song Yafei possibly wrong Yu Chengliang for my sake?
I'm more worried about whether Song Yafei, who is now unrecognizable, can accept herself like this.
Tears streamed down my face uncontrollably. I grabbed her trouser leg and begged her.
"Yafei, please don't do this. Please, please don't be like this."
Song Yafei pushed my hands away, grabbed my clothes, pulled me up, and forced me to follow behind her.
She led me into a small cubicle in the office.
That was where she usually rested and changed clothes.
She dragged me in front of a full-length mirror, ripped off my clothes, and forcefully pinched my chin, making me face my reflection.
"You came here intending to exchange your body for Lin Qiuran's freedom."
All I have left is this frail body.
Song Yafei's fingers slid down my neck, then my collarbone, then my chest...
My body trembled slightly, not from primal desires, but from humiliation.
But I dared not move.
Song Yafei stood behind me and hugged me intimately, her hands moving downwards...
We've been married for several years, and she knows my body best. Gradually, with her increasingly excessive actions, my physical desires began to stir.
As my breathing became increasingly labored, I used my last ounce of consciousness to hold down her misbehaving hand.
"Yafei, don't do this!"
Song Yafei remained unmoved, her hands continuing their work, and she chuckled softly.
"Look at you, you're so pitiful!"
In the mirror, my cheeks and the tip of my nose were flushed with desire, and my tears had not yet dried completely.
I couldn't refute what she said.
"Look at your reaction, you're so hypocritical!"
Song Yafei's expression changed in an instant, and she increased the pressure on my hands, causing me to wince in pain.
Suddenly, she let go of my hand, came to me, pressed her head against my chest, and wrapped her arms around my waist.
This reminds me of the past.
She used to like holding me like this because she felt very safe.
Things are different now.
The same action was performed, but the warmth of the past was gone; instead, I could feel her intense anger.
She accused me in my arms, "Zhang Tian, how could you have fallen so low! Using your body to save someone, are you still the Zhang Tian I know?"
I smiled weakly. If there had been any other way, if it were anyone else, I wouldn't have done this.
In the mirror, I looked at my raised hand, then slowly lowered it.
Song Yafei rubbed her face against my chest. "You've been feeling very wronged lately, haven't you?"
"Are you thinking, 'I hate you so much, so why won't I divorce you?'"
I froze for a moment.
This is the first time she's spoken to me so frankly about this.
I thought she would continue talking, but unexpectedly she suddenly pulled me outside.
Where are you taking me?
Her anger made me feel very uncomfortable.
Once I stepped out of the inner room, I realized that Song Yafei had already helped me put my clothes back on.
Song Yafei walked very fast, and I had to try very hard to keep up with her pace.
"If you want to help Lin Qiuran, then follow along."
Perhaps she thought I would leave halfway through, she reminded me.
I didn't know what she was going to do, so I had no choice but to follow her and got into the car.
The car sped along, and I didn't dare to speak up to stop it, so I just grabbed the handrail.
As the roadside scenes became more and more familiar, familiar images alternated, and countless scenes flooded into my mind.
She gave me a playful smile and chased after me playfully. We carried the groceries back from the market and watched the sunset side by side.
This place holds many wonderful memories for us.
Yet it is also here that an insurmountable chasm remains.
Returning to the place we used to live, it felt like just yesterday that Yafei knelt down and begged me not to break up with her.
Before I returned here, I could still conveniently escape the pain that the breakup brought to Song Yafei.
Even if I had my reasons, the pain was still very real.
It wasn't until I got here that I understood this fact.
The closer I got, the more unbearable it became for me to face it; an overwhelming sense of suffocation washed over me, making it hard for me to breathe.
Song Yafei forcibly pulled me out of the car and, ignoring my resistance, dragged me step by step toward my old home.
Seeing my appearance, Song Yafei turned around and sneered, "What, you know you're too ashamed to come back here?"
I was powerless to respond to her sarcasm.
The door was pushed open, and unbelievably, the inside was exactly the same as before, unchanged.
I couldn't help but look around the house I'd lived in for years when Song Yafei suddenly pushed me down onto the bed and pressed herself against me.
She looked at my pained expression, seemingly enjoying it, and said mockingly.
"So you can't completely forget either!"
How could I possibly forget!
Countless days and nights we toiled in every corner of the house, leaving behind our sweat and toil.
Those memories are like marks branded on my body; I've never forgotten them.
I thought life would continue to be happy like this. If it weren't for that incident and the appearance of that person, everything would be different now.
In Yafei's eyes, she was the victim of this breakup, but so was I!
Over the years, I've carried that body on my back, so heavy that I can't straighten my spine.
Song Yafei's gaze led me to look around the room, and her tone softened considerably as she spoke, "Zhang Tian, do you remember this place?"
I wanted to tell her that of course I remembered, I've always remembered.
I was so overwhelmed with emotion that I opened my mouth but didn't know what to say for a moment.
At this moment, Song Yafei turned around and took out a laptop from the drawer. After turning on the computer, she selected a video from the files.
Soon after, Yafei's crying could be heard in the video. She was kneeling at the door, tears streaming down her face, knocking on the door and calling my name.
The door remained closed the entire time, even as the neighbors opened their doors.
This shows how ruthless I was back then.
Looking at Song Yafei's pitiful state and thinking that all her misfortunes were because of me, I couldn't help but feel heartbroken, and tears streamed down my face uncontrollably.
Seeing her former humble self, Song Yafei couldn't help but tear up.
She gripped my chin tightly, her eyes fierce. "I once thought you might have your reasons, and I even had my hopes."
"I begged you to tell me, but you were so cruel to me, you wouldn't even let me see you. Gradually, I gave up."
"I've also come to realize your true colors. The person who once thought he loved me so much is actually nothing more than a greedy little man."
Song Yafei's eyes also welled up with tears, which streamed down her face.
No, I'm not.
I want to shake my head and deny it; none of this is true.
Perhaps returning to this place that witnessed our love, my feelings for her will finally surface, and I will no longer want to hide them.
I even want to reveal all the reasons why I left in the first place.
I don't know if she believes it, but I want to tell you the reason behind it.
The pain we can't escape all stems from that breakup.
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